I am haunted by a emotion which is not mine, a mind which strives to mischief, a heart which leaps and bounds without regard. Its a strange world indeed which simply does not seem to work the way you envisioned.
I have a deep desire to seep into the world I constructed through countless hours of wakefulness. A world where logic and heart are in perfect harmony, a world where things happen as I want, a world which is filled with fun, music and loads of full-throated laughter.
I want to be able to sing and make merry without inhibition. I want to be able to laugh and love without being hurt. I want to be able to explore and discover without losing faith. I want to be able to live the life I want.
I am getting bored of myself, I am getting irked by my own presence, I have become cynical, criticising a world which is simply embracing change. I yearn for the simple innocent life where one works and be happy. I am beginning to dislike change; and that does not bode well in the era we live in.
Entry on 28th
I am going to be forthcoming here and I think its time you face up to realities and start working towards achieving some goals. In life, we make decisions, most of them we make in good faith that the result would be as expected and would enable us to advance by that one step. However, nothing comes without trial, and nothing comes without effort.
You see, success is not about achieving the highest intellectual capability or coming on Forbeâ€™s list of the richest. Success is about doing something which you love, well and within your satisfaction. Success is about intriguing a novice to your interest by the quality of your work. Success is about passion.
So try and try till you succeed. I know its a motto you have stuck to, but I believe it could be done with more rigour and definitely more penchant. Try, keep trying, till the life you envisioned comes. Try till fate gives in to you due to sheer inability to keep up to the relentless attack. Try till life bows at your feet and spouts out your wishes.
I am sure you’re capable of far more than what your doing now. I know you know this fact. I also know the only factor stopping you is laziness, not the inability to make decisions, subservience to others opinions or the thousand and one things people hint of you. You’re lazy; lazy to grasp the change that comes with a firm fist and move. You’re too lazy to put in the effort required to achieve what you want. You’re not happy coming at 9, dream till 11, going for lunch, dreaming till 4, tea and heading home. You want adventure, you want to be surrounded by people passionate, articulate, talented, people who hold life in their fist, people who dictate what they should be doing in thiir lifetime, not the other way round. You want all those but you’re not willing to work towards it. I suppose achievements will start falling from the tree for your benefit?
So do something! See the world. Be passionate! Live life! Love it! Learn something new everyday. Master something every month. Remember that great achievement and great love involve great risk. But donâ€™t be stagnant. Donâ€™t laugh at your dreams, donâ€™t lose the lesson when you lose. Let the sprit in you soar. All she wants is an initiation. Give that to her will you?
The one song which never fails to cheer me up 🙂
PS: On a geeky note, the autoplay=’false’ function works in IE (6&7) and Firefox but not on Opera 9.